I can’t believe it’s been half the month since I last posted something! I’m slacking so bad it isn’t even funny. I haven’t really written a significant amount of anything in about two weeks now, but I’m hoping I’m finally over this awful slump.
A big boost was getting my FandomFest schedule yesterday. Stephen is amazing, and has put together a fantastic program. If anyone happens to be in the Louisville area the weekend of July 22, come by and see me! Now that there’s definitely something to plan on, it’s helping my feelings immensely.
This whole being pregnant and hormonal thing really has me off-balance in a way I never knew existed. For the first time in my life, I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing, and I’m not the least bit sure of myself at all. And that fatalistic mindset is bleeding over into every area of my life. Aside from being an exhausted lump on the sofa, I haven’t done a whole lot of anything lately. I’m at the “what’s the use?” stage, particularly when it comes to my writing, because I am surrounded by fantastic authors, and see myself as a sad, little wanna-be.
I know I’m going to get yelled at for that… but it’s where I am at the moment. I know a lot of it has to do with the baby, but it’s enough to distract me completely.
I’m sitting in Starbucks with Lexxx right now, and just being here has helped a great deal. She was on vacation with her family last week, and I missed her like crazy on Thursday night. I entertained myself by playing Warcraft, which was not the least bit productive. I’ve also watched LOTS of television and eaten lots of junk food. Biffin (my big, pink feline baby) has been enjoying my lack of motivation, because he gets to sleep in my lap a lot right now.
The good news for me is that sitting here tonight, I’ve not only managed to write a blog post, but I’ve picked up a story that stalled out on me months ago and I’ve added almost 2,000 words to it. I consider that an accomplishment, especially considering I haven’t done squat lately. 🙂